Le Monde de Moi.

Uber-quick, important post @_@

So, leaving for Ontario in five hours, gotta get some sleep! Will not have internet at all, will be on hiatus in the middle of the Canadian wilderness for next 25 days.

Sorry this is so sudden DX I'll catch up on everything when I get back!

Been bouncing around on DeviantART, getting inspired again. Now I really want to draw my boys gaying all over each other. That and like, I dunno, anatomy. -_-   The only way I figure it out is by looking at people/trial and error. And staring at random people gives me a complex, thinking they think I'm a creep XD

Gonna go take a shower and draw. Need to look into anatomy-business cause I'm sick of drawing stuff I end up feeling... guilty...over. I feel guilty when it's bad (i.e. 98.7% of the time)



My boyfriend's ex is in town. Somehow, this becomes stressful for like, everyone. Even my mum and little brother, which bothers me. Not their problem/can of worms. I can't be around during the day cause I'm watching a family friend's twin 7-month-olds for the entire day, and I feel bad for not being there for my boyfriend, cause he's having the most stressful time of all.

Yeah. Gonna go draw the boys gaying. Good for the soul.

Picture #2 of a story solely done with drawings. (Thus, what's going on here will make more sense when I post these in order)

 

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Yesterday I had a random giant art block. Like, for everything. Didn't want to write, draw, sew, knit, nothing. Even the science channel couldn't rouse me.

Well, the good news is I spent about three hours trapped (literally) in Books a Million, which was a cure-all. Good books and good art books saved me <3 I hung around reading one of my favorite art books, which I've yet to purchase, even though I look through it every time I go into the store. It's got lovely examples that inspire me like crazy, and really helpful how-to sections. It's just at the level I need ^_^

So I've been drawing like crazy. Some weird stuff, some nice. Some I don't think I'll ink, even though it's cool (or won't do more than ink). I'm really trying to change my style, make it something new, better able to push my emotions through. I'm tired of the sort of perfect look of manga-style. I'll still draw in it, but I want to draw people more...flawed. I guess. Bigger noses, smaller eyes. I really, really want to draw some nice ruddy cheeks.

The cool thing about this is that it exposes all the flaws in my drawing that I learned to hide with the manga-style. DARN YOU, JAWLINES D:

Anyyywho. Gonna go draw. I've only been drawing late  at night, cause my boyfriend's been feeling icky and I've been taking care of him during the day. It's all good though~ :)


...dude, it's a Harry Potter smiley.  ~:)

Stolen from Ariel <3

1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'.

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments you and asks— and, believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming. Nothing is exactly as it seems.

Been arrested? no
Kissed someone you didn't like? no
Slept in until 5 PM? no
Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
Held a snake? yes
Ran a red light? no
Been suspended from school? no
Experienced love at first sight? no
Totaled your car in an accident? no
Been fired from a job? no
Fired somebody? no
Sung karaoke? yes
Pointed a gun at someone? no
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? YES
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no ;~;
Kissed in the rain? yes :)
Had a close brush with death (your own)? yes
Saw someone die? no
Played Spin the Bottle? no
Smoked a cigar? no
Sat on a rooftop? yes
Smuggled something into another country? yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
Broken a bone? no
Skipped school? no
Eaten a bug? yes
Sleepwalked? yes
Walked on a moonlit beach? yes
Ridden a motorcycle? no
Dumped someone? no
Forgotten your anniversary? yes >.>
Lied to avoid a ticket? no
Ridden in a helicopter? no
Shaved your head? no
Blacked out from drinking? no
Played a prank on someone? yes
Hit a home run? yes
Felt like killing someone? no
Cross-dressed? yes
Been falling-down drunk? no
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? no
Eaten snake? no
Marched/Protested? no
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? yes
Puked on an amusement ride? no
Seriously and intentionally boycotted something? yes
Knitted? yes :3
Been on TV? no.
Shot a gun? no
Skinny-dipped? yes
Given someone stitches? no
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? no o.o
Ridden a surfboard? yes
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? no
Had surgery? yes
Streaked? no
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? no
Tripped on mushrooms? no
Passed out when NOT drinking? yes
Peed on a bush? yes
Donated blood? no
Grabbed electric fence? YES D8
Eaten alligator meat? yes X3
Eaten cheesecake? yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? yes ;~;
Peed your pants in public? no
Snuck into a movie without paying? no
Written graffiti? yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? no
Think about the future? yes
Been in handcuffs? yes
Believe in love? yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes

The "no" part of the list has now become my to-do list. With a few exceptions XD

I'm probably gonna go through and do this as my characters now. Lovely characterization exercize. (don't worry, I won't post it)

So, drawings ^_^ I've been trying to post this, but my wireless always dies while I'm trying to D: SO FINALLY:

 When Sergei first takes Gum home, he's filthy... So he gets scrubbed in Sergei's giant bathroom, gets blood everywhere... At first, Gum didn't trust anyone, even Sergei. He hardly thought -- more a terrified animal than an intelligent being.

( Couple more under cut :) )

I need to draw more. LOTS more...

Story tiemz.

From my novel-idea (not quite a novel yet XD), The Lost Generation

( I has a character named Gum 8D )

So, trying that posting-more-of-what-I-do thing. Too bad I fail and can't get the pictures to be the size I want DX And I've been on this site for HOW long??? Effing noob-ish of me.


For =RoosterBlue's contest on DA. :)

( Two more under cut )

I'm beginning to wonder if I should post more of the stuff I do on here. Cause mostly on LJ I post my writing and occasional life-ranting, but maybe I should post other things too? I'm big into sewing, drawing, photography, and BJDs as well. (like, I do a ton with that and never post it...)

So. There might be more coming in soon. That, and I'll get some pictures of Sam up. Cause I can only keep him to myself for so long 8D

BEST MOVIE EVAR.

Okay, after like, two or three others. Damn.

Yeah that's all XD

This is going to drive me insane XD. Sam's sitting at the post office today cause no one was home when the delivery woman came and it's gonna close before I can get him!

It was actually pretty funny when I came home cause I hadn't gotten the notice in the mail yet that he was at the post office and like, five other packages had arrived while I was gone, but none of them were him ;~; So I moped around for a while, and then the mail came, with the notice XD

I'M SO HAPPYYYYYYYYY

...and I want a Hawaiian pizza so bad. 8<

I'm stressing studying for finals today. The extra day off for Memorial Day would be nice, except it just prolongs the "DOOM D8" feelings. THREE MOAR DAYS FLAJDKFA SKDFNJKSDLJF!!!!!! DX

While I study my nearly finished Undertaker plushy is grinning at me. I'll have to ship him off to Montana soon, and I'll miss him. He looks so insane that every time I look at him I feel better. He's a feel-good tool XD

Lol, blurry pic, but there he is ^^ With a WIP painting in the bottom left corner XD It looks kind of creepy, just randomly being there... I like to be surrounded by my drawings of my characters, especially when I'm writing. They're relatively new characters -- I haven't posted anything anywhere about them yet :)

WOOT! Story!

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Explaining a bit of Cretain's past.

URG HOLY SHIT EXAM STRESS. @_@

Currently, I seem to be addicted to EMS tracking. Seriously.... Even though I know it's going to take another week and a half at least for Sam to get here and I could be spending my time doing more productive stuff.

I want to knit him a scarf. I've wanted a BJD for a year and six months now, and I've always wanted to make one an awesome scarf :3 Cause I know I can knit those well and it won't look like crap. Like hell am I dressing him in crap. Think rufflez X3

Unfortunately since this was an opportunistic sort of buy, I don't have anything ready for him (eyes and wig). Urg. This doll (KDF Hodoo) was the first one I ever fell in love with, and I know exactly what wig I want for him: KDW-37 For Kid Delf (Cream) (funnily enough, modeled by a Hodoo on the LUTS websight :D) www.eluts.com/frontstore/Item/item_zoom.asp But I could go with something similar, so long as it fits his character ^^

This is just about the only time I've been happy with a title. With the exception of Dear Ruben for my other story.

But yeah, have some Gabriel and Sathan :)
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Yay story! This is an old one, I wrote it a while ago. From Pfannkuchen, with all my characters running around in Vienna.

Money. It's a big deal...
( so is this a story of vices? )

There'll probably be a part two. :)

Nothing makes me wake up great like The Velvet Underground blasting on my speakers. Like, the deafening type of blasting.

...I seem to be on some sort of music appreciation spree. Whatever it is, I'm enjoying it XD

Ugh. Was having bad time, but then listened to An Cafe and the day was completely saved! God. THANK YOU FOR LETTING GIRLY JAPANESE GUYS MAKE ME FEEL THIS MUCH BETTER.

Seriously. Total mood change XD ooh! I need to go take pictures!


OH YEAH. I'M DRAWING A MANGA.


Sorta forgot to mention that. It's just short, but it's sooo much fun to do! I haven't drawn with my own characters before (always did doujinshi) and it's awesome! >.<!!! It's been months and months since my last doujinshi, and I didn't realize how much I've been missing. An Cafe! You make it even better! (lolrandomonlynot/fail)

It's got some blood/nudity, but I'll probably post it with a warning. Mostly it's probably just confusing XD Basically it covers the background of my prostitute girls before they met the rest of my main characters for one of my stories... set in Vienna ^^

Yeah. Life is good. :)

Ahhh, almost finished with sewing a dress for my friend (~mightpup on DA) as a really late b-day present. It's a dark chi cosplay, slightly altered to look better on her. She's really awesome to sew for, cause she's slim and really pretty so she makes things look good *laughs*.

But really, the chobits clothes are incredibly fun to sew *-* AND ALL I HAVE LEFT IS HAND SEWING 8D. So I'm gonna go watch Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back (Hoooooooth!) and finish on the couch... I tried it on this morning and it's pretty fun to wear ^^ I'll post pics later. Not the best job in the world. (okay, really really obviously done by an amatuer) but it's the first dress I've ever sewn (and I have to say, dresses are more fun than coats and shirts and skirts).

So yeah, I'm happy. Yesterday was stressful as hell. My boyfriend's ex girlfriend came down to visit him, only he's gone to the keys on vacation because of a mix-up we all thought she'd be here the week before he left but no.... so now she's hanging around and I mean, she's my friend but she envies me and is a bit pissed at me too. I get to be around him all the time and hanging around me just reminds her of that, which I feel awful about. I was planning to just let her spend some time with him -- they've been friends since they were little kids and I sometimes just feel like an imposter. UGHHHHH. FEELINGS OF INADEQUACY. RISING.

So, rant over. Gonna make little brother some food and go grocery shopping for dinner. I think I'll make burritoes for dinner.... And Star Wars of course. FUCKING LOVE STAR WARS. LOOOOOVE.

A bit of drama and yelling instead of actually talking about things. They do talk about thinks seriously, but normally when Sathan's high. Which doesn't always work, cause Sathan doesn't always remember. Gabriel doens't really mind...


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Yeah. I really needed to write. I kinda felt the need to pull alcoholism into the story, even though it sometimes feels like the only thing Sathan isn't addicted to... and the rest can't dream of affording it. Ava gets drinks paid for her by patrons every now and again, but that's it. She doesn't like to drink heavily though. Like, she'll drink but not get drunk. But anyway, I've seen some stuff go down, and really I've only seen the bad side of drinking. So I feel the need to express that.