I really would like to be able to actually paint/draw something that isn't annoyingly bright. Monochrome would be a nice change.

Anywho. Drawings...



Sergei and Gum. Sergei's drawn really the way I see him, Gum not so much... :/ But it works, and the sortof possessive dynamic between them is right.
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And done. These drawing dumps make me feel vaguely accomplished XD

Ughhhh, I'm writing the climax and I suck at action. And then I think I suck at romantic scenes, so I'm pretty much left with... psychodelic stuff and angst. This could explain some things?

whatever. I'm having fun, and I'm so damn glad that my novel's going to be done Monday. This thing has been around trying to make itself for years, and while it's still pretty pathetic, it will be written. With a solid plot and solid characters. Thank god. And I'll actually have time to do long-forgotten thing like I dunno... see my friends, draw, take doll pictures? Whew.

This story's put me through so much shit with it's constant crappiness, it's almost moving that it'll be over soon. Happy :)



and tired. Yeah. Was falling asleep while bringing my grandma to an art show today. It was pretty pathetic of me XD

Got sick and got behind on Nano and life in general. Though freaked out most about Nano. Typed up over 2,000 words last night between eleven and three in the morning, so if I get 3,000 more today I'm good. Whatever the sick is, it really saps me of energy during primary writing time (post hw and dinner)

I've been procrastinating by making icons and reading amazing amateur writing. Seriously, there's yaoi.y-gallery.net/user/gunsandpocky/'s crazy awesome stories. Check out the Downed*Angel folder.

Other than that. time to write. More. Let's see how many times Isaac can fuck up in one novel.


...aren't the superhuman male romantic interests supposed to yanno, save the girl a couple times? The only time's she's in serious danger is cause of him. Idiot.

Got the day off of school cause of veteran's/armistice day. Best thing ever.

Random angst times are over, so I'm back to merely being exhausted and sick XD It's not too bad this way. Not been drawing anything really. A sketch or two, and that's it. I'm amazed at how much other people doing NaNoWriMo have done on the side, especially with larger word counts than mine. I know it takes me time to write, but still D: You people are amazing!

The novel's coming along, sounds a ton like a soap opera. At least there's a bar fight in the first chapter, an (almost) bear attack in the second one, a car vs. moose crash (moose won), hypothermia, rum, and way too much swearing. FUCK KEEPS MY WORD COUNT UP. And it's all twisty and involves too much angst and suspected child abuse by the police chief and stuff like that. WHAT HAVE I LET LOOSE ON THE WORLD????

Of course, near death experiences involving moose aren't too rare. I have had one u.u WRITE WHAT YOU KNOW 8D AND FEAR THE MOOSE.

Unfortunately, one of my old teacher's is bound and determined to read it. I still fear her wrath. For one thing, she was the only teacher to warn me specifically not to let the characters swear too much >.>

Here, random excerpt:
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And seriously, it damn well does look like one.  And my teacher wants to read this... she might get the "made for TV" version >.>

I've been listening to way more acoustic stuff than normal. I guess it's good for writing, but normally I like songs with lyrics, so it's interesting.

I'm typing up homework and Nanowrimo and feeling utterly useless. Leo's had a migraine since last night, and it's been really nasty- . He's just laying around and then having to get up to puke every couple minutes. I can't stand feeling like I can't do shit, especially when I really can't help him at all. I've never had a migraine, though I've watched him have his about weekly for the past three years. I can't even just sit with him because I'll probably just end up making it hurt worse. This sucks. I can't stand watching him hurt and just sitting here saying I'm sorry because there's nothing fucking else that I can say.

Just feel like the most useless person in the world. I just feel like such an utter shit, and like there has to be something I can do, but all I'm doing is sitting around and crying.

Guhhhh, dead tired.  I've been writing slam poems for school (we preform them on Friday. Mine needs some improvement.) and I need a costume for Halloween. I'm thinking Queen Elizabeth. Because I have red hair and a vaguely queenly dress. If no one gets it I'll just say I'm Antonio from Cry to Heaven and they.... won't get it. Unless they've read their Anne Rice. In which case they'll point out that he refused to dress as a woman for most of the book.

I know, I should be cosplaying. I just have no energy for it this year. So much drama has managed to surround Halloween (of all things, really) that I don't feel enough gumption to sew, even if the machine wasn't broken.

Still gearing up for Nano. I need something to replace coffee, since caffine makes me sick D:

There's wifi at home now, so everything's much easier. I just need some ink for the printer.

Sam piccars. I should be photographing my mum's pottery for her sale coming up soon. Buuuuut. First this.


He'd only really wear anything cute up until he was seven, then shit went down. But it's fun :3

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And that's it. If I weren't allergic to caffine I'd go drink some fine Cuban coffee, just because it sounds so damn good.

mkillappeal's Izzy, in-class doodle form. With random sketch!birds. Cause I needed practice with them.

I really should've posted this ages ago. Oops?

Actually, I just looked through my journal and I haven't posted any pages at all DX FAAAAAAIIIIIL

The cover art is here: pandafoot105.livejournal.com/45296.html

Warning for NSFW content going down, just nudity at this point.

And pages:


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Yeah. It's weird. I have more on smackjeeves, but this's good for now ^^

Ughhhhh, what do I do with this?! I know her skin's too green, I'm going to fix that (it's harder to tell on my laptop), but blaaaarg. All the lighting and details and ffffffffff



It's Ellen and her cat Franz, fyi. Franz is named after her boyfriend's dead cousin.

Haven't done one of these in a while :)  I took a break from drawing manga this past week and drew regular stuff instead 8D.  And I finally bought a mouse for my laptop!! No more colouring in PS with the laptop touchpad thing! *ghetto*

Some of these I'm happy with, some not so much -_-


Fanart for Tokisama on DA. Alexander James and Caroll. Being blind and angsty. Except only Alexander's blind.
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AND THAT'S IT. GOD THAT WAS A LOT. I'M SORRY.

LOL, IT'S IN A MONTH???

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Time to write Dear Ruben, I guess! My boyfriend's not looking forward to Nano, cause I dissapear and stop sleeping for a month. It's way more fun than he thinks it is XD

I finally get to write Rubeeeeeeeeeeen! He might quiet down when his story is written, but Isaac sure hasn't. And Ruben has always been loud, ever since he sprang up one day, declaring his name and looks and his personality.  I'm glad he and Lucer finally get their story, and I really love it. I'm gonna finish two books this school year!!! It makes me so excited!

here's my nano page, go ahead and friend me if you'd like! I'd love to see who else is doing it!! www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/312401

Here's the coverart for my manga. When I finish it I'm drawing yaoi because there's like...none in here. It leads up to my novel, Pancakes in Vienna. The plot revolves around Ava and Sadie, two prostitutes stuck in the darkness for their own reasons. They both have main roles (especially Ava) in the book. I love that it's going to end with the beginning of the very first scene of the novel :D I already know how I'm going to draw it, despite still being on chapter two XD

You can read it with regular updates on my smackjeeves.  www.smackjeeves.com/profile.php

The title's Vienna Nocturnal, and it's rated... mature, at least. For guns, sexual situations, gore, violence, nudity, and prostitution. (wtf have I created, anyway) Anatomy sucks in places.



Shinnnnnnyyyyy haiiiiiiiir. I'll post some actual pages later.

Randomly written poetry. Not angsty. A bit reflective.

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I need to write some real stuff that has some sort of literary merit XD

I've just been searching through my journals here and on DA, trying to figure out when me and Leo's anniversary is. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE GIRLFRIEND'S JOB, ISN'T IT. OOPS.

Anyway, it hasn't happened quite yet, which is nice. It's like, Thursday/Friday.

It's like, eleven o'clock and I'm exhausted. Hilarious.

I'm thinking about posting my manga on here. Not sure anyone'll read it, but hey.


I should be writing novels. This is the constant state of my life.

I'm thinking of actually finishing a manga of mine, which covers the stories of Sadie and Ava, two prostitute girls in Vienna. It's mostly done and sitting around on my laptop waiting for me to learn how to draw guns.

I just fail with that :/

Anyway, I'll be happy if I can finish it. Three-day weekend, so maybe something!

Urg, I'm sunburned. There was a surfing contest at the beach today and I walked down the pier to check it out, and it was really lovely so I just went swimming in my clothes. With no sunscreen, cause I'm an idiot who's tanned twice in her life, both times in Canada.

Whatever. Manga. I always draw the angsty backstories... :D (after I'm done with Ava and Sadie, I'm moving on to Adam, my gay pedophile murderor's childhood.)

So I've been sick for a couple weeks now and I'm thinking maybe I should do something about it. I know at least three people with swine flu, but I really doubt that's it.

If that's it I'm gonna hit my immune system with a lead pipe.

What I'm actually worried about is that it's strep throat. I've had it a lot in my life, and more than once the only reason anyone realized I did was because I had a rough throat for more than a week that just wouldn't go away. No fever, nothing else. Honestly I love my immune system, so no hitting with the pipe, but it does make for getting the people around me really sick by accident, cause I can just walk around with it. Last time I tried that I got my boyfriend so sick from something that just looked like a headcold in me that the doctors thought he had mono.

So. I'm gonna see about checking what the hell this is. It's so weird *shaking head*

Over on DA someone left a message asking if, since I write/have tons of characters, am I a famous author or something?

XDDDD Best comment EVAR. Came from someone who, as far as I know, has never read a sentence of my writing *still laughing*

Somedaaaaaay, children. :3


Put me in a pretty good mood, which was nice cause my computer crashed right as I was about to download this one doujinshi I spent a damn long while hunting down on the interwebs.

(I got it, and now it's making me cry ;~;)

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Hopefully I'll be getting better at this. I'll be damn well trying, so we'll see :D Now I'm getting a shower and going to bed.